Starting The Process Again?....Maybe!

Dustin and I have been saying since we were placed with Carter, we would take another child right away if we could. However, due to the expense, it makes it very difficult to imagine adopting again, when we still owe money on Carter's adoption.

Well, we really want a little girl, preferably African American. So, I was doing some research on the internet, and decided to fill out a form to see what it would be like to adopt through fostercare. Now, instantly that shoots fear into me. However, I found out they have a program that we can say we are only interested in children who are already looking to be adopted, that way they won't be taken out of our home. So, we marked we were looking for a child 0-2, preferably female, but would take either, and open to a small sibling group, we will see what they say when they call with detailed information.

As I was sitting there filling out this form, I was talking to a girlfriend who is adopting a little girl from India, and is hoping to have her home by Christmas. She gave me a blog of a friend, and there is going to be a conference in July. I am truly thinking about attending, not only for information, but I think it is important to interact with other adoptive families.

Adoption is such a different feeling. The thought of putting our family on display again in hopes of expanding our family is a whirl wind of emotions. I get so excited about adding on to our family, and yet it really makes me nervous too, when we know so little about the backgrounds of the birth families and what kind of emotional roller coaster it can be.

Anyway, here's to testing out the waters and seeing what is in store for us. Who knows what will come from it all, but hopefully the end result will be a new member(s) of our family. It could happen tomorrow or in 3 years, that is the beauty of adoption.

Hurricane Heather

We were invited up to Ponderosa camp ground this past weekend for a dear friends 35th surprise birthday party. We were both so excited to go spend sometime out of the city and with some of our dearest friends.

I had asked my mom and Garry if we could use their pop-up trailor just in case there was some rain, we wouldn't have Carter on the ground and give us a little more protection from the rain and wind if we needed. However, I don't think we really thought it would be bad. We were just looking forward to good stories, good drinks, and good times.

We got there Friday, set up camp and was doing our best to keep the bears away. I don't know why but it really surprised me to read a sign that said be aware of bears. It freaked me out a little bit, and I was even more greatful for Garry and mom bringing me their trailor. Once we were there we started with a vodka cran and just began to enjoy our time.

Friday night there were a few sprinkles and we were in sweatshirts but it was very relaxing and a good time. However, Saturday morning was a whole new ball game.

We woke up Saturday morning and it was sprinkling. We made some breakfast at the camp fire, and just kind of dealt with sprinkling off and on. At about 1:00 there was a down pour, but it past about 30 minutes later. So, back out in the drizzles we played some cards, drank coffee, and continued to pray for sunshine.

Unfortunately, at about 6:30 the rain really began to fall and we were freezing. By 7:00 pm there was sheets of rain falling, and tarps flying. We made a run for the trailor with Carter and our 2 God-daughters, got them out of wet clothes and we all climbed into bed.

It continued to rain for another hour or more just a down pour. Finally it let up, but Dustin and I opted on not going back into the freezing, wet, muddy cold, and just called it a night. It really was such a bummer.

That night was freezing, and it continued to rain all night. By 6:00Sunday morning we were both ready to call it. I called Garry at 7:45, the earliest we dared, and asked them to come and get us. Luckily, they said they were on there way. Approximately two and a half hours later, our camp was cleaned up, trailor loaded, and we were in our warm car, with warm heat, headed back home.

The people we went with were great and we are really bummed we were rained out of our get away. We opted to name the weekend Hurricane Heather, since it was so windy and rainy over Heather's birthday party.

Highlights of the Trip:
-Jaden's stories, (he is 3 and told us he was an adult who drank coffee and grape juice)
-Heather and Nick climbing over an 80 foot tree to the very top...I think they're crazy
-Friday night's camp fire and stories
-Having Carter experience his first camping trip
-Good times with good friends!

J and Chris Wedding...Take 2

Jocelyn and Chris were married back in March, however, due to it being so quickly put together they decided to keep it little. So, Chris went off to training and J moved home to plan their big wedding.







So, last Wednesday, June 10th Joc and Chris had their big wedding. It was so much fun and turned out beautiful. They got married at Millenial Falls, which I would highly suggest to anyone who is looking for a place to get hitched or have some kind of reception. They were able to have Cold-Stone ice cream, dancing, and even were able to get married outside. The rain broke probably 15 minutes before it was time to take the trail down the aisle.



I have included some pictures, but may add more as they come in.

FUNNY...

Isn't it funny how often life changes. I often think about the past and everything that I have done, been through, etc. I think about the people I have met, the people I have dated, the people who bugged the shit out of me, and the people who I met, knew for such a short amount of time, and yet they have truly touched my heart. It is crazy to me to think about situations in my life, and the people who were with me at that point, and now know why they were there for me during that time...most the time.

However, I am realizing how hard it is for me to let those people go. I love to keep in contact with people and know how they are doing and what they are up to. But, sometimes I wonder if that is abnormal. I can go years without thinking about someone and then when their memory goes across my mind I can't get them out of my head. I HATE IT!

For example, the other day an old friend came across my mind. We have talked off and on forever, but he was someone I dated off and on, and so we don't talk, we just shoot e-mails occasionally. Well, it was always weird in the past when I thought about him, he usually reappeared in my life some how, for many years. The day my little boys adoption was finalized, I kept thinking of this guy and I was upset with myself.

Anyway, after several weeks of him being in my mind, my dreams, etc. I decided to e-mail him. Well, he wrote back pretty quickly and told me his mom had died the day I finalized Carter's adoption and he was struggling. I was devastated for him! I just can't imagine being as young as we are and not having my mom around. No wonder why he was in my thoughts so often. So, I wrote him back trying to ge more information and nothing.

I have not heard from him since and it makes me so sad. I have been asked by another friend why I care, and I truly don't know besides he was someone I was a really good friend with, and I am sad for him. Is this bad? I don't miss him as a boyfriend AT ALL, but as a friend, I really worry about him.

So, I just felt like I needed to write this in hopes that maybe he will leave my mind. I have had dreams about him crying and saying "Why did she have to go?" The look on his face haunts me! It is weird, I hate when this happens. I have such a hard time letting friends go, I just want to stay friends with everyone...LAME right?

Interesting post I'm sure, but I just felt like I needed to write! Have a great weekend!