Thursday, December 31, 2009

A Reflection of 2009

A friend of mine went through and did highlights of his past year. I really loved reading his, and I decided that I should do this as well. So, here it is.

*February 3, 2009- Dustin and I were able to finalize our adoption with Carter and he officially became ours! Best day of the entire year!

*I started teaching at Hillcrest Jr. High this fall. I am the case manager for all severe students and for the most part I have really enjoyed it.

*I saw Boys II Men in concert and it truly was so good! I remembered how much I love their music.

*We celebrated Carter's 1st birthday July 26, and it was so fun. We had over 60 people there, a huge blow up water slide, and tons of giggles.
*After Carter's birthday party, the adults decided to have their own party, and I ended up falling off the huge blow up water slide...a little to much tequila.

*On our way to California we saw Jay Leno in Vegas, and he is very spastic, much more then on TV.

*Dustin and I went on a cruise with our very best of friends, there were 19 of us, to the Mexican Riviera and had one of the best vacations I can remember. We had so much fun and were able to truly get away and relax.

*On August 10, I had a cyst removed from my ovary. It was the size of a grapefruit and had a blood vessel running through it that was bigger than my fallopian tube so they had to take my tube as well. I was in a meeting at work the next day, and went to Flaming Gorge two days later.

*In April Carter had tubes put in his ears and started crawling the same day. We have only had one ear infection since

*In April I started my first round of the HCG diet and by November 1st I had lost 65 lbs.

*In May Nathan, Dustin, Carter and I went to Boise, ID to visit Haley for Memorial Day weekend. We were there to just hang in Boise. But on Sunday we decided to head into Oregon to eat breakfast, it was only about a 45 minute drive, but as we were there decided to go further in to Oregon. By the middle of the day we were headed to Portland, OR for the night. We were able to cross into Washington state, see Multnomah Falls, Mt. Hood, and Portland. It was the most fun, random trip we have ever had. We drove back Monday from Portland to Salt Lake. 1700 miles, 1300 pictures, 4 friends, 2 states, and countless memories made.

*Jocelyn and Chris were married in March and then had the big wedding in June.

*Joc and I took Carter and Colin to story time every week during the story time, and the lady reader was a complete BI!!!

*We spent a weekend with our closest friends camping up at Ponderosa. It was Carter's first trip and it ended up raining the entire weekend. We luckily had my mom and Garry's trailer to keep kids warm in. It was cold but we had a really good time.

*In March a friend gave us tickets to the Jazz game. We saw the Utah Jazz vs Phoenix Suns. It was so fun and Carter loved every minute of the game.

*My brother-in-law was in Afghanistan from June-December, and returned home safely December 17 to his bride.

*On November 16, I found out I was pregnant!!!

*On December 23, we had our first ultrasound. They did not see a baby so we wait to see if my dates are off or if the baby stopped forming. We will know more the beginning of the New Year.

*In December Dustin found his half-brother and has been able to talk with him a few times.

As we say goodbye to a pretty great year, we are looking forward to all 2010 has to offer and bring us. We want to thank each one of you who have played such an important role in our life. We have felt very blessed this year and feel like we are in a good place in our lives. HAPPY NEW YEAR TO YOU ALL!

My Top 10 in Ten

With 2009 coming to a quick end, I thought it would be neat to look back at the last 10 years of my life, and write down the top ten things I have done in ten years. So, here it is:

2000: Graduated from Woods Cross High and started college at USU
2001: Had the best year of my college life with friends and GPA showed it...
2002: Went to Schwenksville, PA to be a camp counselor for the summer.
2003: Started dating Dustin and was began special education program.
2004: Graduated from USU in Special Education and received my first teaching position.
2005: Married Dustin on August 6 and began my grad program in October.
2006: Went to Jamaica with family for a week in June.
2007: Went to Puerto Vallarta with Dustin, Joc, and Chris for a week.
2008: Completed my Master of Science in School Counseling & Carter was born on July 26.
2009: Went on a cruise with friends and found out I was pregnant a week later.

Well there it is. Top ten events in my life for the past ten years. I am sure there is more, but that is what really sticks out in my mind. Here's to saying goodbye to 2009 and hello to a new decade, 2010.

Christmas 2009

Our Christmas was so much fun! We were able to spend some serious time with our families and loved ones and feel so blessed for all that we were able to do.

We spent Christmas Eve at Dustin's sisters with his family. We just ate appetizer foods and spent a few hours chilling with the family. Carter experienced going ass over tea kettle down the stairs, which scared the hell out of me but he was just fine.

Once we were done there the three of us came home and started getting Peanut ready for Christmas. When I was little we had the tradition of opening one present Christmas Eve and it was ALWAYS new jammies. So, I have decided to continue the tradition with my family and we all sat down by the fire and opened our new pajamas. Dustin and I got Peanut ready for bed, read a Christmas story, and then put him down.

We were able to get Santa setup and I think Dustin had more fun playing with the toys then anybody. We got the rest of the house straightened and Dustin cut some of the fruit for the morning.

Christmas morning Dustin and I made some breakfast items. He made quiches and I made some muffins. We then waited for our parents to show. My mom, Garry, and dad showed up about 9:30 and we were able to start Christmas with Peanut. We removed the sheet that was covering Santa's gifts and he was off. However, the first thing he went to was the drum-set and that consumed all of his attention.

The rest of his gifts took quite awhile to open. In fact we didn't finish until Christmas evening. But he did receive a piano, a new comforter for a big boy bed, gabba gabba dancing monster, drum-set, jammies, clothes, etc. It was so fun.


We then went to my moms where we ate passoli and opened our presents. At moms we got a portable dvd player, UP, a safe, and many more fun gifts.

Christmas night my family headed to Logan. We were able to visit my Aunt and her darling family for a few hours. It was so nice to catch up and see my cousins. We then headed to Dustin's parents and spent the night and rest of the weekend there. It was a perfect Christmas day!

Weekend Getaway for Christmas

Coming from a divorced family, it is becoming more and more difficult to make sure we see everyone on Christmas day and be able to enjoy some good old family time together. So, last year my dad's side of the family decided to go down to Castledale to see my sister and have a Christmas weekend there. My sister has a beautiful home down there that fits all of us comfortably. We all had such a great time last year, we decided to do it again this year.

On December 18 we headed down to Castledale as soon as we were all off of work and got there a little after 7. We had Frito pie for dinner and then just kind of hung out for a little bit. Once we got the kiddoes down we began a mean game of hand and foot. I would love to say that Chad and I won, but unfortunately, the first game neither one of us got into our foots, and the second game Chad didn't again. Needless to say we took a serious beating.

Saturday we made breakfast and got all the Christmas presents ready. My nephew ended up finding the fish tank and thought it would be so fun to see what items would sin and float. By the time we realized he was being very quiet, we went into find the fish swimming with my glasses, my contact holder, pens, pencils, MP3 player, earplugs, a Santa figurine, and so much more. Once we got it all out it was pretty funny, and the fish survived.

The boys went for a drive and some recreational shooting. My brother-in-law dropped them off, and 45 minutes later he hadn't returned. So, after a quick phone call, he informs Shannon he has gotten his truck stuck and waiting for his dad to go pull him out. A little while later the boys come back but Merrial is still gone. It took a little more effort to pull the truck out of the reservoir, but got it done.

We then made a fabulous Christmas dinner and then opened presents. It was so fun to have all of us together and see the nieces and nephews together for presents. We received a snuggie, a drill, a gift card, and much more. It was so nice.


We then played another game of hand and foot, where Chad and I lost AGAIN! We called it a night earlier and then headed for bed. Sunday morning we got up, ate breakfast, cleaned up, and headed home.

It turned out to be such a great weekend. I am so glad so many of us were able to get together. Jocelyn and Chris missed it because they were still in California, and Shane and Hailey missed it due to having a brand new baby. But, hopefully next year all of us will be able to join again.

What Christmas is All About

This year, we did a few things a little different for Christmas and I really loved it. On Dustin's side we decided instead of doing niece and nephew gifts we would adopt an was angel. It turned out to be such a great thing. I'm not going to lie, it was a little stressful but we really ended up feeling so good. It was so humbling for me to see what was on my kiddoes list.

Our angel was two years old and this is what his list consisted of. He asked for clothes, a coat, shoes, underwear, socks, and an elmo toy. It was so heartbreaking to us to see that his wants were just typical needs. We were fortunate enough to buy a little of everything. When we turned in our angel gifts there were so many little angels on the tree. It broke my heart and made me wish I was rich enough to do them all.

The other thing we did was created a Christmas party for children who are terminally ill. My sister-in-law is a CNA there and had told us how many of these kids wouldn't be receiving anything for Christmas, so we decided to do a little.

My father in law dressed up as Santa and delivered a small gift and stocking to every child. These little guys are going through so much and it breaks my heart to know so many of them spent Christmas alone.

As we did these two small projects it truly humbled me and made me realize just what Christmas is truly all about. By doing these two small things, I really did enjoy the holiday season even more!

Thursday, December 24, 2009

Well...Hmmmm!!!!

Yesterday was my first doctor appointment since I found out we were pregnant. I was so excited and couldn't wait to hear fetus's heartbeat and see the little body! Dustin went with me and we were ready!

My doctor came in and asked me all of the regular questions. We discussed my medications, previous surgeries, celebrated the fact I was finally pregnant, and discussed different delivery options due to my medical problems. My doctor has been with me for five years and know's me very well, so it was very nice to be celebrating this little miracle with her.

It was then time for the ultrasound!!! She comes in and starts to do the tummy ultrasound. She is searching and says here is your bladder, uterus, and this is your sac. Then she continues to stroll around. At that moment the whole atmosphere of the room changed. She asked me to lay my head flat, to relax my tummy muscles and then started pressing down a little harder. I said,"Lisa, is everything okay?" And she says "just hold on Linds."

A few more minutes passed and she tells me she is going to do a vaginal ultrasound. So, she preps that and then starts searching again. She is taking measurements and the look on her face is very serious. So, again, I say, "Lisa, what is wrong?" After another minute or two this is her answer.

-"Linds, you have a sac. So, there is no doubt you are pregnant. However, the problem I am having is that I can't see a fetus. So, this means one of two things. One you may only be six or seven weeks along. Your sac has no abnormalities, which is good, and if your dates are off then the sac would be correct. If it is the other one, then that means you got pregnant without a fetus forming."

So, I ask, "What does all that mean, are my symptoms of the pregnancy all in my head?" Lisa says, "No, either way you are definitely pregnant, we just don't know if when the egg and spern fertilized an embryo didn't form, just tissue, or if it is just to little and we can't see it."

I say, "Okay, what does all this mean?" She comes back with this, in the most loving voice. "Linds, it means we have to wait. I am going to do some blood work and see if your levels are where they are supposed to be. Unfortunately, we will not have the results until after Christmas. Once we have those, we will wait 2-4 more weeks and then schedule another ultrasound. From there, if there is a fetus, we continue going with a regular pregnancy. If there is still no fetus we will either cause a miscarriage or you will have a DNC."

As I sat there taking all this in, trying to be brave and not tear up, my sweet husband says, "You have to tell Lindsey what the odds are here! I know her and she will sit and obsess about this unless she knows!" And my doctor knowing this as well, simply says, "I am so sorry, I have no idea. All we can do is wait and find out."

She steps out of the room for me to dress and the tears start to come. Dustin tries to give me loves but I know that I will completely fall apart if he does. So, I get dressed and wait for my doctor to come back in. She came back in with a lab order and says, "I will call you as soon as I know what the blood work says." I wish her a Merry Christmas, and go next door to the lab.

They took 10 viles of blood yesterday, that is the most I have ever had taken at one time. The rest of my day was kind of shot to hell. I am trying so hard to be brave, but it is so hard. I am praying for the best, I just don't know how realistic it is. I have know I am pregnant for 5 1/2 weeks and just don't know if the 6-7 week pregnancy is realistic.

So, bottom line...I am at hurray up and wait. I hate that part, but just pray fetus shows up next time!

Tuesday, December 15, 2009

Tis the Season

I really do love this time of year. I find so much joy in all that Christmas means to me and my family and am so grateful for everything. This year I have truly enjoyed the Christmas shopping, ESPECIALLY BLACK FRIDAY, the wrapping of presents, sending out Christmas cards, etc.

Dustin and I rarely have done Christmas for one another. We usually have gotten something earlier in the year and decide that is our Christmas present to one another. This year we bought a laptop and a camera for our cruise. So, it is nice to not have that stress on top of it.

We also decided to do an angel this year. I am not going to lie, it was a little more stressful then I thought it would be, but I truly feel like we gave back a little this year. We had a 2 year old boy and we were able to get him a coat, pajamas, clothes, socks, underwear, shoes, and a toy. I really have been so glad that our family did this and wish we had more money to do more. When we turned in our angel presents, there were still probably 50 angels who had not been picked. It breaks my heart to think there are munchkins out there who won't get Christmas this year.

I am very excited for Santa to come this year and how much fun I think Carter will have with Santa's toys. I can't believe Christmas is just around the corner. I look forward the season and having some time with family and friends.

Last weekend I went to Dustin and Nathan's family parties. Then this weekend we are headed to my sisters for a family gathering there. We will then have a couple days of work, then I am done for 12 days! HOORAY!

Anyway, Merry Christams and I hope everyone is taking the time to enjoy the holiday season and all that it represents.

Tuesday, December 8, 2009

So Far...Not to Bad!

I am currently 8 weeks pregnant, two days away from 9, and so far, I have been very lucky. I am feeling pretty good and able to function for the most part normally!

I am not suffering from tons of morning sickness, which is very nice. I was worried about it, but I have now had a couple rough days and think that everything is just fine. However, the one problem I am having is with my back.

I have had 19 inches of medal rods in my back since I was 15 and for the most part, it truly hasn't given me much grief. I always have spasms during the winter but nothing some muscle relaxers won't take care of...UNTIL YOU ARE PREGNANT!

I hadn't really thought much about having my rods and being pregnant being a problem. However, this last weekend due to the weather, being pregnant, and serious spasms, I am starting to worry a little about how my body will handle the pregnancy.

I believe right now I am dealing with my siatic(?) nerve because I have pain from my back to my toes, but I am not really sure. I have so many questions to talk with my doctor about, that I feel like 2 more weeks is forever away! I just want to know what my options are and if having this baby vaginal is even an option or should we just opt straight for a c-section?

So many questions and only time will tell. I am looking forward to the doctors. My first appointment is on the 23rd of this month, and I am praying I get to have an ultrasound and hear my fetus's heartbeat. I am still in such shock that we are pregnant and am ever so grateful everyday that I am experiencing this part of motherhood.

Anyway, hopefully Week 9 is just as good!

My 16 Month NOTTLE!!!

Carter is currently 16 months old, and let me tell you, he is a handful! Don't get me wrong, I love my child dearly, but we are going through a phase and he has a streak of naughty.

Anyway, we are constantly telling him, "Don't hit..., don't throw..., don't scream..., don't, don't, don't." We are dealing with time out, which is going better than I thought it would at this age but good grief, it can be exhausting.

So, this is a shout out to all you mothers...especially my special ed friends, looking for behavior modification on a 16 month old little boy. I have ignored, I have redirected, I have put him in time out, I have given positive praise, and the list keeps going. So, is there something you all have found to work, or is it just a phase, or is it just my child?